For what if I care about other people's feeling but NO ONE understand me, understand what I want ?
I felt I gonna blow up soon and yes . I did . Now .
Cry . Is what I want to do for a looooong time .
People change, Things change, Environment change, everything . Felt irritated all the time .
Where are the people around me when I need them the most ?
Yeaaah, people change, the surroundings change .
A suckish day at school . Like seriously . I dont know why . Especially during Chemistry . Zulya, what happen ? I just talked to Haidi for a short while and when I come back to you, you are in a bad mood and you ignore me. Only talk to mean if YOU HAVE TO, and when I asked you, you said Nothing ?
During the breaks we were not talking, after Guides ? You left me and took another route home ? Its hurt . Seriously hurting . I don't know what I have done until you treat me like that. You ignore me for the first time Zulya . Let me say again, FIRST TIME .
Pointing and wriggling eyebrow ? It was a joke . I don't know any head or tail about it . And you accuse me of making things worse ?
You are somebody. You are someone .
You are my bestest friend that I ever had . I appreciate you . I never lupe about you. You know my problems and you know every single thing about me. You should understand kan ? Without you, I dont know what's going to hapen . Like seriously . You were always there for me when I'm down .
I love you like a sister . Not a friend .
And this pass few weeks, I always look forward to home. Where there is Laptop, Busu Girl, Busu Boy, Ibad and Darwisyah were home. Their company was really enjoyable. Especially laptop, since it broke down for almost a month and I finally get to use it .
Andd so, was home, after Girl Guides, after a day of silence.
On the laptop to check my tagged, facebook and to my surprise, there is a parental control and I can't play my Night Club City on facebook. What the hell ?Tolonglaa kak . You are not my Mum ! If my Mum maseh hidop, she won't be so cruel and heartless like you !
I'm sec 3, Im 15 . Im old enough to take care of myself . Nenek and atok pon taq macam giny laa .
Ouhkays . latest . I just know that everyone hate me . Thanks yeah ? Its so great to have all of you around . Friends, Family, app it like A LOT .
Felt so honoured . All of you just don't understand . When you were talking, I was looking at you and you say I ignored you ? Great .
I'm not just your anak sedare ? Im just like your kids ? mean I childish ? Awesome . And for the first time, you shouted at me ? Superb .
I super fed-up with every single things that I faced . Seriously .
Fed-up with life to be exact .
Schools is just a must .
Friends come and go .
Boys just sucks .
There is a saying . Friends will be with you during sunshine and go when its rain . But family will be with you rain or shine . But now, I'm thinking twice about that saying .
Nahh . Its not true .
Now, I learn a lesson . Never trust anyone and don't depend on anyone .
I miss my mum and dad .
